I haven’t been able to focus today.
I have things I wanted to do, and I didn’t do them. I’m not going to be hard on myself, though, I will do them tomorrow. I promise. I just need to make sticky notes and listen to some good music. Oh, and stretch when I wake up.
I’ve just been kind of stressed. Wondering how it’s all gonna work. I need to take a step back and just have faith. When I get stressed out, and project onto my partner, it minimizes his ability to be efficient because then he’s stressed out. It doesn’t benefit anyone to be stressed out.
It is what it is. I have a roof over my head, amazing family, an amazing little ball of life inside of me, and it’s all gonna be okay. It’s perfect. Just the way it is, perfect.
We ordered my dad’s birthday cake, and his party is on the 10th. My dad turned 50 today. He stopped smoking cigarettes, because he said I can’t be 50 still smoking these damned things. Well, if that’s what got him to quit, mixed with knowing I don’t want smokey hands touching baby, then good. I’m happy he’s taking steps in the right direction. I’m proud of my mom too. They both quit smoking and they’re doing really well mentally. I’m happy to see them as a team again.
I wish my brother would get his crap together, AND that’s perfect too. He’s gotta live his life and learn his lessons. I’ll still pray for him, though.
Well, one of the things I didn’t do yet, I get to have finished by midnight. So, I’m off to do that. I might post another blog before bed. We will see.